Success?

Ok so I was offered and accepted a job at a new center nearby. I can't believe I'm returning to the world of corporate bull. I said when I left the last s---hole that I'd never work in one again unless I was management but here I am, unable to get OUT of the Infant Room. Don't get me wrong...I'm happy to work with babies and get to sit and rock with them and create my own way of doing things and stuff. I just hope this one turns out better than the last.

Feeling numb this week. Been going for PT for my foot since April for tendonitis and I thought it was better but over weekend the pain came back. I'm so frustrated and annoyed! Sneakers everyday now to make sure it wasn't sandals that did the new damage. Not sure if I can take Celebrex while on my meds...going to call doctor tomorrow or pharmacy to find out.

So many things going through my head to put here. I'm just really feeling off this week. I don't want to work but I have to so that's part of the issue. I enjoy sitting at home and basically doing whatever I want but reality is kicking in and I need to help support my family.

Will write more next week after starting...please let this work out.

Until then!
Amy

A month later

So I went for my 1st Med Check appointment since starting medicine. I had all these things I wanted to say to the dr but I just didn't. She asked how everything was going and I told her that I have some really bad days and some ok days. It's just so hard to stay positive and FORCE myself to be happy around others. It's hardest on the weekends. I don't know why, maybe it's because my hubby is there with me and I feel bad that we don't "do" anything but I just have no desire to do anything and thinking of things to do makes it worse.

I had 2 interviews last week and I was supposed to hear back on Friday and it's now Monday and still no word so that's really frustrating. I am really excited about either opportunity and I know that the right one will come along but it's just so hard to wait. Going to call the one back in a bit and see what they say, if there's any word on a decision to hire me or not. I just want to know at this point.

Ok so I just called. According to receptionist, they got my message from the weekend but hasn't called me back yet. She's on a tour (the director I need to speak with) so hopefully she'll follow up with me later today. It would be such welcome news to hear. I'm not READY to go back to work but I NEED to go back to work and I think my mood will improve and my outlook on things will improve.

Thanks for this diary of sorts and if you read this, please pray for me.

Until next time,
Amy